tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27478786.post115135915828636478..comments2011-01-01T23:22:14.811-08:00Comments on The Path of the Warrior: Time Outsusiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00627575472955941912noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27478786.post-1153863601022800142006-07-25T14:40:00.000-07:002006-07-25T14:40:00.000-07:00I hear that.I hear that.susiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00627575472955941912noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27478786.post-1153083379996491292006-07-16T13:56:00.000-07:002006-07-16T13:56:00.000-07:00possibly.....but I don't really like the idea of s...possibly.....but I don't really like the idea of something up there other than....well you know.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27478786.post-1152684428722155772006-07-11T23:07:00.000-07:002006-07-11T23:07:00.000-07:00Oh, one more thing...is the diaphragm an option?Oh, one more thing...is the diaphragm an option?susiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00627575472955941912noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27478786.post-1152684366199908782006-07-11T23:06:00.000-07:002006-07-11T23:06:00.000-07:00Hard to say what you'd be like. But shit, we shoul...Hard to say what you'd be like. But shit, we shouldn't have to be on Xanax to mother appropriately! Though as a parent educator once told me, "In the old days, we had cocktail hour." Then there was all that Valium abuse, and chain smoking. I don't know, Honey. I've come to the temporary conclusion that mothering muiltiple small children is impossible. But the anger thing is really hard. I have a hair trigger sometimes, and before I know it I'm in Jonah's face because he won't let me get him dressed, and he's telling me it's not nice to yell. The thing I wrestle with is that any normal person would swear and throw the occasional fit and feel trapped and freaked out and angry if they were home all day with two kids under 5. It's normal. We're not crazy. The situation is crazy. It pushes so many buttons, too, like your own memories of being a kid, etc. Being a mother is an emotional minefield!<BR/>(Can you believe I talk like the angel of death about parenting and then I go off and facilitate a support group for new parents? Ha!)<BR/>Anyway, keep checking in here. I will too. <BR/>-Susiesusiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00627575472955941912noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27478786.post-1152135390449880482006-07-05T14:36:00.000-07:002006-07-05T14:36:00.000-07:00It comes and goes...usually lasts a few days. A l...It comes and goes...usually lasts a few days. A lot of times it happens when I am not feeling good, I have been dealing with a toothache problem for over a month and I keep throwing my back out so I get really irritated really easily. But other times it is just because. It feels like PMS but I don't get that because I am on the pill continuously so I shouldn't be having hormones going crazy. I know I need to go off th epill because I think that is part of it. So I either get prego or Charlie goes under the knife...soon! Anyway,I think it also happens when I am having trouble with the kids, when they are screaming it makes me upset, makes me feel like I am constantly doing the wrong thing, plus when you are around kids all day and they are yelling at you to do this and that...you can't help but start doing it too. Sometimes I am so envious of my friend Michele who works 40 hours a week and doesn't have to deal with the all day shit...<BR/>I have so much piling up..the house stuff is overwhelming and the kids are going through wierd phases, Lily is all of a sudden all clingy...soooo annoying!! Deuce takes his pants off all the time! I want to enjoy these years but I can't help but want to wish these years away...it is a harsh reality. If I talk to my mom about it she says to pray about it. Babysitters are great too, it s a nice break but I still have to come back....I love going out with my girlfriends and dates with Charlie, that is when I am most happy. I wouldn't mind trying a dose of xanax to see what would happen. Like Deuce the other day bit me when I was trying to put him in his car seat and I called him a little shit and told him to get into his fucking car seat...I whispered it but still...is that how I am supposed to act? If I was on a drug would I just be like...whatever that's ok you are only 2....very interesting...Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27478786.post-1152131840644579412006-07-05T13:37:00.000-07:002006-07-05T13:37:00.000-07:00Hey, Rose,They do have drugs like that. I don't wa...Hey, Rose,<BR/><BR/>They do have drugs like that. I don't want ot be seen as pushing drugs, but Xanax has helped a lot when I'm freaking out over every little thing and I can't even deal with my kids for five minutes. It starts to work in 20 minutes. <BR/><BR/>I think baby sitters are the other wonder drug! <BR/><BR/>That dutiful feeling is the worst, because what's underneath it is seething resentment. Why should we have to be robots just to get through the day?<BR/><BR/>Is this happening a lot?susiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00627575472955941912noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27478786.post-1152040451700017412006-07-04T12:14:00.000-07:002006-07-04T12:14:00.000-07:00Hey Susie,I am so having one of those...I wish I c...Hey Susie,<BR/><BR/>I am so having one of those...I wish I could say days but it is lasting longer....I am getting those..."chill out" looks from Charlie and feeling very "dutifull" this week. I am ROBOT...... I am hoping to snap out of it any moment...not sure what is going to make me feel better though. To bad they don't make quick fix drugs...you can just take a couple of you are thinkng you woke up on the wrong side of the bed and you can walk around feeling cheerful and nothing bothers you...when are they going to come up with that?<BR/>I am so glad you are there to "get it" Lots of quotation marks today...Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com